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Originally Posted by Amethyst_Stargazer
I hardly have any friends. Most of my friends are online. People always ask me why I'm sad. Sometimes I get sad because I wish people cared about me or wish that somebody cared.
I'm always alone and I'm alone because I fear that I'll get hurt again. People always seem to hurt me or take advantage of me. I want to be around people so badly and I enjoy being around people. Sometimes I look at other people having a good time and I feel sad. Than I think inside my head nobody would want to be around me because I look sad.
When I truly need someone, nobody is there for me. People always come to me though with their problems and I'm always there for them and give them comfort and make them feel better. Than I won't hear from them for awhile.
So tired of being taken advantage of and walked on. Do speak my mind once in awhile and let others know that I'm hurt. Other times I keep it bottled inside because I don't want people to be mad at me if I come across as mean. I'm angry for people taking advantage of me and anything I say comes across as harsh because I'm hurt inside by how many people hurt me, abused me, manipulated me, lied to me and took advantage of me. Wish that this hurt would go away and I'm trying to work on it.
Right now I'm feeling really sad and I feel so alone.  |
Open Eyes gave you some good advice on ways to approach this. I agree that working with a therapist may help you identify why this continues to happen to you. You sound like a very caring person and sometimes we can be taken advantage of for being so caring. The trouble with helping others is sometimes we take on their troubles and it compounds our own things we are dealing with. So setting some boundaries with the people, in a nice way may help. Redirect them to other sources to help themselves. Sometimes having them work out their own problems helps them learn new skills to solve their problems, so in a way it's helping them to not answer all their problems they present to you. It's hard to say no sometimes. But you have to look after yourself and do what's best for you and they need to do the same. Maybe they are not aware of how this hurts you. Have you talked it over with them? Have you asked "why are you always coming to me with your problems to help you out and then I don't hear from you till the next problem" "Can we chat sometimes without discussing problems?" This may be a little too strong but you get what I'm saying here. You have to let them know how you are feeling. That you care about them but you want to be more to them than just an advisor. Best wishes with this and we are always here to talk with you, remember that
