I'm having a major issue today and I'm a bag of nerves. I've had issues in the past with emailing or texting my T. I don't want to do so because it became a problem before. I don't want her to think That I'm crying wolf or that my issue is not important enough to send an email.

I was at work today and my kids were at home. My oldest is 16 and my other is about to be 12 next month. Someone came to the door and started banging really hard. They banged a couple of times and then left. My kids didn't want to anbserr the door and didn't want to go to the window. They got in touch with my next door neighbor to ask if he heard banging or if he had any banning and he said no. My oldest looked out and thought he saw a cop car leaving. He was unsure of who knocked. We are always on the verge of going to court for custody. My ex has something planned and we never know what to expect. We don't know if now he's come up with something else that I have to defend myself to and now they're afraid. I go to work tomorrow again and my nerves are shot. I'm actually afraid of the unkown and I always think the worst. I was about to write an email to my T but decided not to.

Now this is eating me up inside. I'm afraid of going home. I have to go home tonight. I'm not sure what to do. She might not even answer. Who knows what will happen from here until wed. I don't know I'm just scared.