At work on break. It took me massive doses of Clonazepam and Abilify to get the courage to go to work. It is so busy I feel like I'm drowning. My mind can't focus but I have to do I can get each customer what they want. I work in a printing section of a retail outlet so have a varied job. This helps but I am forgetting things and making mistakes. Meds have calmed me but my thoughts still race and I get disoriented. Hopefully no one will notice. Four hours to go. I can make it. I have to.

Yesterday I thought I was feeling better but today I am feeling worse again. Need to shake this mixed state. Hopefully the med increase I started Thursday will take full effect soon and bring me out of this agitated, restless hell. My mind is odd too. Reality is odd. Very disconcerting.