Now, I tend to internalize my anger most of the time, either through my inner critic lashing out at me, or by just keeping it in and stressing out, to continue my CPTSD cycle. Occasionally, I do lash out, and I don't like it when I do, so I do everything in my power to avoid it.

In the past I was less able to control the anger and I did "let loose" more often. I can really relate to what you are saying here.

I'm sorry you had to leave your job because of this. This past year has been very rough for me, and I found myself struggling from depression and anxiety, in addition to my CPTSD. This past summer, I had a long discussion with my supervisor and told him what was going on. He was very supportive and in addition to allowing me to flex my schedule however I needed to, fought to get me approval to work from home in limited situations so that I can spend more time with my daughter. This has been very helpful for me. I'm sorry that you weren't able to get the same support.

I'm not sure of your insurance/financial status since you left your job, but if you have a mental health association in your area, they are generally non-profit and provide services for free. They can help you find individual therapy and provide groups and workshops. We have a great one in my area.