I feel like crap right now. Luckily I'm not going to sink into a black depression again because of the Prozac, which has worked 100%, and my own work on myself. But I just need to vent...

I asked this girl named Jenn out, even though she didn't know if she was splitting up with Chris, who, if he found out would pummel me to a pulp. She refused of course. After all, who wants to be MY girlfriend. I'm a hopeless freak moron!

To top it off, she said we could be friends, then started ignoring me. My step dad thinks this was accentuated because I told her that my romantic feelings are not hers anymore.

She's led a pretty traumatic life; molested by her uncle, beaten by her grandfather, countless suicide attempts and her sister is bat %#@&#! crazy. She's in therapy for PTSD and depression.

I just wanted to provide for her, let her know I cared and at one point loved her. But she obviously hates me now. God I'm stupid...

To make matters worse, I'm now attracted to one of her friends. But I don't feel like being told no again, because she will NEVER agree to be my girlfriend. So I have challenged the universe to make us a couple. The universe failed the challenge last time. I'm not a schizo. So I should just crawl into a hole and die. No one except my stupid relatives, teachers, friends (except Jenn) and psych doc think I'm smart and have hope in life . What do they know? Kelsey will never go out with me. But I love her like crazy.