Hey thanks. That whole go to bed and wake up the same time each day suggestion is the same thing my drs and pretty much everything I have ever read tell you to do!!!

Well today I went to bed at 4 bc of the day sleeping and then my brain woke up at 6! I did force myself to go back to sleep or at least lay there though so I don't nap later on.
****. Why can't I just sleep like normal people.

I suppose part of the problem is that while I get up at 645/7ish every day on the weekdays, that doesn't necessarily mean that I am going to bed at a normal time. I try to but my brain really fights me on that one. Even when I don't take a nap a lot of times I get a second wind in the evening. Getting to sleep before 1/2 is hard. So then on the weekends I try to make up for missed sleep and attenpt to restore my sleep bank account.
It's a ****** method I know but it has mostly allowed me to get up and go to work every day so it's hard to change.

I don't take anything for sleep and can't take Benadryl.
Regarding the opposite side of sleeping too much, not sleeping, I get the chicken vs egg thing bc sometimes I'm not meaning to stay up but get caught up and lose track of time. I just thought it was interesting tho that sometimes if I do stay up i can make my mood go up.

So I guess this is another crappy coping mechanism I have learnt, this one to deal with inconsistent sleep habits. ****. Do I do anything healthy and right? I feel like in order to find better stability I need to change every single fxcking thing I do. Which seems impossible and overwhelming and makes me want to not even try. But I am gonna work on this if it kills me bc I know sleep is a big one....