Still struggling. H was not there when my daughter said this yesterday. Went to grocery store with H shortly after writing this here. At the store he suggested I get my son something if it makes me feel better (groceries). Grabbed a couple of bags of figs and a jar of organic peanut butter. He was irritated that I grab the organic (my son's preference). I said, "OK, beggars can't be choosers and switched it out with cheaper, nonorganic. As that peanut butter went across the scanner, he said, "See, that's an example of a decision based on emotion." I immediately thought was he reading what I just wrote? I have been struggling with these thoughts all week. It is not good.