I want to actually not be embarrassed at my lack of functioning today. Yesterday was bad- I felt a combination of misery and agitation and wanting to sleep forever.

I know this is the depression talking but reading peoples posts on here lately and all these grand things that they have already done today is just making me feel worse. I can't even get myself to put on real pants and here are people cleaning houses and working out and cooking food network worthy meals.
And then I feel guilty for not feeling happier for them that they are actually doing well. Because that's messed up. I should be genuinely happy that other people are kicking this mood disorder's arse. And I feel like a self centered ahole who can't stop focusing on myself and my problems. I suck. Sorry if I am better at the taking than the giving part of this whole support network.

May today be a good day. And sorry for all the random posts.