I added the trigger warning because I didn't want anyone to read this thread if they were fighting with delusions.

I think we are taught that we should repress delusions and believe they are unreal. Any delusion we experience that we cannot repress or we accept as real, we are taught we failed at overcoming the unreal.

NOT ALL DELUSIONS ARE REAL, and not all of imagination is unreal. In my opinion.

Well, I denied mental illness was causing my problems for decades. Now I am on SSDI, and feel I am choiceless in life. Broke, with little to no hope of ever having money to travel or change my life.

But I also have stability for the first time ever. I know I will get enough money to pay for my food, and have a roof over my head all my life. And that is wealthy compared to much of the world. So I try to stay happy in that and find joys in small things like being able to buy a blueberry plant, and hope it grows.

I do believe bipolar is the honesty disease. (joke)

It doesn't let us lie for many years. Not to ourselves. It forces us to accept if we married the wrong man. It won't let us pretend or suppress for long. It pushes truth of how we feel in the forefront and won't be denied. No matter how hard you want to be a good girl for other people, you have to be what you really feel when you are mentally ill. No matter how much you want to make others happy. Well, that is my truth anyway. I have to be what I am on the inside, or I end up causing a bigger problem in the long run. I blame my MI for not being what others wanted me to be. I tried.

Maybe that is why we can be such a pain in the butt to others. Because what we are bothered by cannot be stifled.

So, try to listen to yourself when your a wee bit upset, because eventually - if you ignore it, you will be yelling.

I am sorry, but I think that is true.

You cannot deny your inner self. So start listening to yourself when you make choices. Don't try to only think through life, but feel too.

And yes, I think we are tuned in.

And if I have a bad feeling trying to push itself at me, or a bad ghost or entity, I don't let it control me, I do open myself up to feel why it is sad, and try to help it to morph into it's new self. I also put protections around myself, and my computer, phone, home, yard, children, and as far into and around space as I can to make everything healthy that lives within the realm that I can manipulate with loving energy. Everyone entry in and out of my space and existence.

Things just want to be, and grow and change. That is the evolution of existence.

Things want to be 3d. But not everything can be. Things want to be felt as if they are 3d, but they aren't and they cannot harm us. But they can be felt and accepted, so they can accept and grow and change and morph.

Just love outwardly, and everything can evolve. Just love, and swallow and poo and move on. Nothing can hurt us, because at our core, we are just love.

Just love.