My annoying uncle called me while I was driving today, I let it go to voicemail. All he does when he calls is try and guilt trip me about my relationship with my father or the fact that I'm estranged from most of my toxic family (like I go around crying about it or something - I like being estranged from them).

I kicked him and my dad off my Facebook a while back because I was so irritated by the idea that I couldn't share things because of their negative reactions and judgments. I also felt like they were using it to be passive aggressive towards me.

He mentioned in his message to me that he hadn't seen anything on Facebook in a while. I'm like, duh, because I kicked you off of it.

He was in the hospital back in December, and I'm glad he's doing better, but I really don't need to have a conversation with him that will most likely just be about him telling me how to live my life or that he's going to get me and my dad to talk to each other and work things out...like that's all that it is. Just us needing to "work things out." Not like there was abuse from him to me my whole life...not like that abuse didn't continue into my adulthood. Not like he doesn't have violent anger problems that I have no desire to be around. Not like he didn't lie about the whole reason for the last total falling out.

I think the whole reason I never wanted to get married or have kids was because of him. I would never want to introduce any boyfriend to him, nor would I want him to walk me down the aisle.

I just don't know if I should call my uncle back and how to keep it to a conversation that won't totally piss me off. I don't need to have a conversation that ends in me having to take meds to get over the anxiety of it. And I don't feel like expressing that to my uncle, because he will relate that back to my father that my PTSD is caused by my family, and I'm sure my dad will spread that around and twist it. He's already spread the rumor that I don't have PTSD or depression but rather I'm bipolar and that's why I have had problems. He's done that because if it's bipolar then it means he's not at fault at all. But I don't have bipolar disorder. I've seen plenty of pdocs and Ts and my diagnosis has always remained the same.

I don't want to call him back, but I would feel kind of bad about just ignoring the call.

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