Hello Sick_of_being_Sick: Well... I have to tell you I don't believe in god. So from my perspective this is all just thoughts your brain is producing. I'm not a mental health professional. So I'm not in a position to suggest to you what diagnosis you might be given. But I personally feel pretty confident in telling you that god has nothing to do with all of this. It certainly is true that anxiety over one's ability to perform sexually can have a serious effect on one's ability to do so. And these kinds of worries tend to feed on themselves. So the more you worry the more trouble you have. And then the more trouble you have the more you worry. And on it goes.

I enjoy learning about the findings of research on the brain that is being done now with such technology as fMRI. One conclusion I've read about that sticks in my mind is that much more or who we are & what we do is controlled by areas of the brain to which we have no conscious access than we would typically imagine. So my mostly uneducated perspective, with regard to all of this, is that it is being generated in non-conscious areas of your brain fueled by a mixture of anxiety, alcohol, & whatever drugs you are using or may have used in the past. My personal opinion is that to continue to entertain the possibility that this is all somehow the work of god is simply to prolong the agony. The answer to your problems lies within your brain. And this requires real-world solutions... to the extent that there are any. My recommendation, for what it's worth, is to seek a mental-health-based solution.

I see this is your first post here on PC. So... to PsychCentral… from the Skeezyks! May the time you spend here be of benefit.

PsychCentral is a great place to get information as well as support for mental health issues. The more you post, & reply to other members’ posts, the more a part of the community you will become. Plus there are social groups you can join & chat rooms where you’ll be able to connect with other PC members in real time (once your first 5 posts have been reviewed & approved.) Lots of great stuff! So please keep posting!