first welcome to PC ... there is a lot of very caring people here ... don't be upset if you do not get a reply right away ... the board can move pretty fast and sometimes posts get over looked ...
you seem to have a lot on your plate .... and it really sucks your not getting along better with your T ... I doubt your an unlikeable person ... but I don't doubt you are very tired ... being tired and or depressed can color your out look negatively ... try to hold on ... keep posting ... you can always private message if you just need to talk ... Tigger.