My friend and I have had an on again off again relationship for 45 years. He knows that I am a rape survivor and we get along sometimes for a while but then he treats me like, I don't know a piece of meat. He has straddled me held me down, torn my clothes off and sexually assaulted me. Even when I tell him no, he does it anyway. He has spoken to me too often and says to me "get him from your legs" even if I am not with another man. I've asked him why then I get the "Oh I was just kidding". I have always stopped seeing him for awhile and then something happens that gets us back together. As of late, I have been trying to move to the city that he lives in and I have stayed in his apartment from time to time while searching for my new home. He has had prostrate cancer and his penis doesn't work well, thank goodness but then he uses his fingers and he is very rough, I make all the right noises but I don't enjoy myself. He thinks that I am in Love with him but I love him because is a friend and we have helped each other over the years. Two weeks ago, he violated me and I am not gonna take his crap anymore. I was trying to take my belongings and leave his apartment and for about an hour, he tried to get me to stay, sit on his bed and I kept jumping up trying to head out of the door. My things were packed at the door and he keep pulling at me and making comments like a little boy saying that he doesn't tell me no and he just wanted to make me happy. I told him I was working and had to leave. That's when he walked up behind me stuck his hand down my pants, touched my vagina and smelled his fingers. I am beyond offended. Then for the next 3 days I tried to get my property back and finally had to have my sister ask him to take my property to a friends house. I'm ready to file charges and it's going to be a problem in our families