When I was a child, my birth family was very dysfunctional. If I had a friend, my father would make sure that they were no longer around. I am having a hard time because I am very lonely and I feel like I am in a world full of people, but they don't understand what happened to me and I believe that they don't want to be friends with me. But, I really need a good friend.

I have Major Depressive Disorder and I am struggling really bad. I have an autistic child that I am trying to care for and I love him very much, but have been wanting to go to Heaven lately. I can't help it. I look at old people and I get jealous of them because they are almost at the end and get to go to The Lord. I feel like I have 30 years left and I don't know how I will handle it so lonely.

I really need friends to talk to. Will you help me?