Hi,

Before I respond your post itself, I'd like to welcome you to the Psych Central forums. I hope that you'll find this site to be a helpful source of support and information, and I'd like to encourage you keep participating on the forums here if you think that doing so is something that you might find to be beneficial. I'm sorry to hear about the difficulties that you've been having with making decisions, with feeling like your brain sometimes shuts off, and with things not having gone well when you've tried to face your fears. It sounds like the symptoms that you've been experiencing have been the source of some distress and impairment, and I hope that if there is anything that you might be able to do to minimize the symptoms and/or cope with them better that you'll find something that will help with those things. Visiting a mental health professional might be something to consider trying, if you haven't already considered doing that.

As far as the situation where you were accused of doing something that you didn't actually do is concerned, the only thing that I can think of to suggest that might help you to better explain your perspective on the situation would be to try explaining things in writing, as opposed to explaining things verbally. If your brain seems to shut off while you're in the middle of writing down your thoughts about the situation in question, you should still have the opportunity to come back to what you had started to write at a later time when you might be able to express your thoughts more clearly. The biggest downside to explaining your thoughts in writing that I can think of is that if you end up making significant mistakes in your explanations, it's probably more likely that those mistakes could end up being used against you than it would be if you were to keep trying to explain things verbally. But beyond perhaps trying to explaining your thoughts about what happened in writing, I'm not sure that doing more to prove that you weren't lying would make much sense. If you've already said that you didn't do what you were accused of doing, tried explaining yourself, and even passed a lie detector test, it sounds like you've probably already done enough to prove yourself. Still, it might be the case that if you try explaining your perspective on what happened to the person who's accused you, you might be able to explain things better if you do it in writing.

To conclude, I hope that you'll find what I've written here to be of at least a little bit of help, whether or not you end up deciding to follow the suggestions that I made. I wish you the best as you move forward with everything.