Hey. Thanks for the hugs. I probably should've saved the Im not okay for a worse time than this. I think Im just sick and tired of trying to convince the world I am fine.

I guess the Depression just sort of snuck up on me. I mean i had been living in a blah state of low grade winter misery for a while. And i was making it thru. I was getting by.
But then I had that small burst of feeling great in January. And now going back to this shat. I probably would have been better off without the temporary mood lift, I would have not remembered what I was missing.
When I stopped caring about anything a few weeks ago and was questioning if that was normal or depression, I guess it was depression. I hate this.
And since I didn't really eat anything today but took my meds, my stomach now feels like it is digesting itself from the inside....bleh. I suppose I should make some meal.

Thank you for making me feel a little bit less alone.
-naynay