Okay, so I think I need a reason to stay in therapy pep talk. I can't find a balance of what my T expects of me between sessions and my real life responsibilities and it's overwhelming me physically and emotionally. I know....I need to talk to my T about this. But that's part of the problem not wanting to disappoint people who expect something from me. When I do that though I totally forget to take care of me and I don't see therapy homework as taking care of me. In fact I have a hard time understanding why she asks me to do what she does? There must be a reason to her madness

It just seems I stay in my head all the time trying to figure out what needs to be done first , what can wait, it drives me to a panic attack and then I say it's not worth this and I do nothing.

I've found that when I get the energy and thought to do something here around the house I need to do it. Or else I will not come back to it for a while because there will be something else that needs to be done. Like today I was cleaning out my pantry, oh did I mention I'm a hoarder, with that in mind you can pretty well image what this pantry looks like. So I started cleaning that out and then it hit me I have done my therapy home work, so I left that and started looking at the therapy homework, then I looked at what all I had drug out of the pantry and I say _____ it and don't do either.