I always thought I had a pretty good relationship with my adult son. However, in years past my financial problems have increased while my ex (his father) has done very well. My son lives in a different state far away. I miss him so much. He has told me less and less about his father but I started to get the idea that they see more of one another than I know. I have never met my son's new girlfriend. I miss living near them.

Because of dumb social media I found out my ex is now retired. My son did not tell me this nor did he admit (until on the phone tonight) that his father has visited, met his new girlfriend etc.

My life is pretty much falling apart. I now realize that because my ex has a lot of money he can afford to send my son money, visit my son and girlfriend etc. While I have no money and am barely surviving.

I will probably never be able to retire. I don't have a home and don't take vacations.

I think that maybe my son has a better relationship with his father. I feel such betrayal as when my son was traumatized by the divorce and my ex's quick remarriage when my son was a teen...I was there for my son...and on into his early adulthood. I was a real big emotional support for my son. At the time I was much more emotionally stable than I am now. I had a little extra money to give my son and always provided him with stuff like expensive camping equipment, watches, etc.

But now I think he must favor his father over me. I also think he does not respect me because of my current life situation. I am certain he must see me as a loser in life.

I guess i should have known. I guess it is none of my business. My son is an adult now and can choose for himself what parent he spends time with.

Whoever said money doesn't buy happiness is wrong. It does. My ex has a happy life, a large home, a second wife, takes vacations abroad, buys sports cars etc. while I am probably going to end up homeless within the next year or two. I have lost everything, and now I think even my relationship with my son as well...because I am very far away geographically and don't have the money to visit him while my ex is retired and well off and can probably visit as much as he wants.

It really is none of my business. But it breaks my heart. I love my son more than life itself and I always felt we have a good relationship. My mental problems and state of poverty has probably taken it away for good.