I am not on any psych meds. My health care provider does not believe in prescribing benzodiazipines.

The plan is for me to continue to do CBT on my own with weekly check ins by a counselor.

It's not enough.

I have told this counselor as much for several weeks.

The plan is that I look for another job and move forward.

Okay.

But seriously the anxiety is making me sick. I used one of my "copings" mechanisms and got up and took a hot bath. It is 4 a.m. I have not really slept at all tonight. I am almost tempted to stay up but being tired makes my stress worse.

It's been over a year I have been complaining about anxiety but my health care providers only say take benadryl at night for sleep.

Recently anxiety is causing me to be nauseous and dizzy. I have not had panic attacks but the other day I absent-mindedly ran a red light right at the entrance to a busy highway.

Today I was again at that intersection. I realize the cars on the highway are going 65 miles per hour. If it had not been at an odd time I surely would have caused a major accident. I am sure it was the anxiety causing me to be absend-minded.