I want to date and think about online dating, but every time I think about going back on OkCupid, I feel sick. I was hurt very badly by someone I dated from there last year. While I feel more over it now (he acted like an asshole and turned out to be very immature in the end), I still have very mixed feelings about online dating. I have been insulted by men online in this capacity, I have met complete creeps. I think I would have to be ok with 1. Not dating for a while, like, not settling, which I don't want to settle. I set the bar too low before) 2. Having my profile up (this is the scariest part for me, putting myself out there). And 3. The possibility of coming across that guy's profile. His profile image was from a date we went on.

I have never had luck on match.com. I'm not even sure if I use it right, because I've never really had messages after I've paid. I also find it less personable.

You know, I just feel so much stress and anxiety about online dating now. I don't know if it's worth it to me. I think I want to put up my profile. But then I freak out and want to take it down. I shouldn't let the mean actions of some, dictate what I do. I don't want to date just because I'm lonely or horny, is another thing. I'm shy though.

I will have to be more patient. But it just seems everyone and their mother is with someone.