Hello Wintery. Thank you for writing some on how things are for you. I'm sorry you're feeling this pain. You wrote some things that reminded me of myself earlier in my life. Not the same exactly because all people are different but there were similarities in the way you described things.

I'm glad you feel safe enough to speak here. It's important to tell someone how you feel. Many here can relate on some level you can be sure of that. You say you've been on Abilify for several years...is there a way you can let your doctor know that you haven't felt any benefits from it? There's much I don't know about you but I do know that doctors exist to help. Sometimes it doesn't always seem that way but they are generally better for you than bad.

I wonder if you, or someone you know and trust, can let your doctor know about your concerns with the medication. I think most doctors are open to trying a different one. I'm pretty sure that's so. Trying another medication is an accepted practice with drugs like these. I know this to be true from personal experience.

Some people aren't aware of this and consequently some people never find the medication that can benefit them most. Others can back me up on this. If Abilify isn't showing a positive effect after several yrs, then you're entitled to ask about trying something else. Wintery...if you don't tell them this or get someone to help explain it, then the doctors will just assume the medication is performing well enough. That's not fair to you. The proper medication can help a lot. Don't be without hope. What are your thoughts on that if you don't mind me asking?