That is all I do. 100% of the time.

For almost 3 years I thought it wad due to mental illness.

Now I think I am just a loser who can't seem to improve my life situation.

My thing is I am always "seeking advice and support" -- but now I think it is more like I am whining and complaining ad nauseum and that's why I am alone.

See? Here I am again, asking for advice. And support.

But honestly I REALLY WANT TO STOP THIS HABIT.

My thought is to reserve complaining ONLY for my journal where I am only making myself irritated.

I actually have TRIED not complaining to people closest to me like my son or best friend but I literally cannot be on the phone with them without ending up crying.

I also think I need learn how to kick myself in the butt instead of indulging in self pity.