I've often wondered what my life would be without the trauma. Of course, these ideas usually occur to me when I'm feeling down so it seems like life is better without them. It would have to be right? I get angry and upset and I feel completely helpless.

And then, on the good days, I step back and realize what I have. I take a final drag, smash out my smoke and go back inside, fully aware that I'll never know what I lost but that I can appreciate what I have.

Cyran0