I've spent years believing that sexual encounters that happened to me as a child were my fault. So I understand that belief. But you said one thing that takes all the blame off you and on the rapist who victimized you. You said stop.

I agree with those who have said that you should find a good therapist. It's essential that you be able to see this event for what it is and I, for one, could not do that without some guidance.

Cyran0