Hi Amethyst_Stargazer,

I am unable to post a lengthy reply right now but I just wanted to say that you are not alone in how you feel, in fact, I am happy to have stumbled on your thread because I am feeling the same way!

I will respond when I am at my computer.

The world seems dark when we get hurt, but trust me - it can change! When you can be more assertive - you will stop attracting those types of humans who manipulate and take advantagr of you. You have a ton of self-awareness and clearly you are intuitive: which means you probably can detect those types of people before they hurt you. Sometimes we sensitive types fail to remember to utilize that skill - and it is a skill. Sometimes we believe that being assertive is wrong, saying no is wrong - but if you try it you will begin to push the unhealthy people away and attract the healthier ones and thus, begin to change the filter through which you interpret the world... Just remember - you view the world based on your personal experience. You are valid in feeling and thinking the way you do... But it doesnt have to be that way and it can change.

I am in a similar struggle right now - trying to change my brain after ptsd. Lost faith in humanity. We can gain it back - but we do need to work on ourselves too. We cannot change others, we can only change ourself.

I will respond again soon,

Thanks,
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