It's not very appropriate to post such feelings here, but feelings are feelings. It's better you say something, somewhere rather than following through on rash impulses.
We would like to help in any way we can. Don't feel that you have no one to talk to, though we may be strangers we are connected in a sense, we have much in common and are struggling with difficult issues and striving to liberate ourselves from them (or just get to a point where life is bearable).
If you wanna talk, we'll listen.
-luke-