Recreation sensitizing to sight sound smell etc I had a bad without permission experience to the patterns on the journey even once I left those that first abuse me in therapy. It was too early and I didn't let that one organization off once I got a way to share without making us look bad. I know some of this is inevitable if on the journey to find out what happened in your youth on the journey to healing and wholeness. I rather have conscious involvement certainly not having to adapt to be okay the famous approach which I'm not famous per se to have it make sense so that I can be sane in world in the now marred by mental illness. I'm a bit reflective here, but it is still part of my truth. I pride myself in conquering it and have done a great job.

It would have clicked in the confines of therapy office........
1. 80's 90's toys
2. Visits to old neighborhood
3. Bringing a trend back isn't something that isn't unheard of
4. Q and A with relatives if told in a conscious way there might have been willing relatives without having to out yourself as this type of pattern forces you to do.
5. The internet is full of newspaper articles television the library things from the past that can help associate memories.....

Like I said I'm just reflective I have been there done that and got several stories to share and also legal recourse isn't as undetectable crime as I once thought too bad I'm pass the filling limit.