Hello Thestranger5: I see this is your first post here on PC. So... to PsychCentral… from the Skeezyks! May the time you spend here be of benefit.

With regard to your particular concern, the answer here is probably therapy of one sort or another. This may include individual "talk" therapy. Also there is a type of therapy referred to as EMDR. I've never had it. But it's supposedly effective for dealing with past trauma. Here's a link to a website that describes EMDR:

What is EMDR? | EMDR Institute ? EYE MOVEMENT DESENSITIZATION AND REPROCESSING THERAPY

PsychCentral is a great place to get information as well as support for mental health issues. The more you post, & reply to other members’ posts, the more a part of the community you will become. Plus there are social groups you can join & chat rooms where you’ll be able to connect with other PC members in real time (once your first 5 posts have been reviewed & approved.) Lots of great stuff! So please keep posting!