The first thing I see when I walk in the office is my boss and his pet employee chatting quietly outside his office. Neither one says hello to me. This asshole thinks he's a "visionary leader." And that's just ********. I haven't seen him do one "visionary" thing yet. And I have worked for truly visionary people in their fields. Sorry if that sounds condescending, but I have worked at some world-renowned institutions for people with a lot more charisma and innovation than this dork.

I wonder if I can just sit in my office and avoid him until I get a new job. I hate doing that. I'm a leader and a go-getter. It's against my better nature. But right now, this toxicity just consumes me. It sets off my PTSD, and...I don't know. Someone suggested last night that maybe I need to go back on disability. Maybe I do. Maybe it's just me and not being able to handle the work place. Except that i know it's not me. There is so much gaslighting going on, it's ridiculous. I know it's not me because I've heard NUMEROUS complaints from others (because I'm management they confide and vent to me).

I cannot get out fast enough.

What do I do? How do I make it through the work day? I cannot commit to putting in more than 40 hours a week here any longer when I get treated like ****. I just can't.

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