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Originally Posted by prefabsprout
(((Dechan)))
I am no expert but your mother's serious illness must have had an effect on you, the fact you can remember sitting waiting shows the impression it must have made on you. You were attached to your mother, she was your security.
You can now see the strategies you used to help manage anxiety were not always helpful long term. I don't see you as stagnant but having learned from your past and knowing not to repeat those harmful strategies.
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Thank you, prefab. Even though my doctor offered medication for anxiety I don't think I want to take it preferring holistic things such as herbs and exercise.
I don't think much about my past. I figure you can't change it so why think about it.
I remember one hospital I waited in. I was in a place on the ground floor with big windows. There was a ballet store across the street. I remember looking in the store windows at all the dance costumes to make me forget I was scared. I loved ballet and took ballet lessons even though I was a clumsy little girl.
The odd part about all those bad ways of coping is that they seemed to really not have a negative effect. I worked hard, played hard and accomplished stuff like finishing my degree while working full-time. My mother completed an advanced degree in sociology (she already had a nursing degree) one month before she died...so I guess she was a good role model.