I had an epiphany today thanks to one of our lovely members. So my focus has changed in the right direction. I'm actually productive at work today, although I'm a little bitter that I even have to work today since I thought the snow was going to be worse than it was. Anyway, I'm not full of dread as I usually am , and I am determined to move forward. Then as I went to get my morning cup of tea, the tag on the teabag has the following: "If you let yourself be successful, you shall be successful".