I feel a little more hopeful than i did last night. I really want to stay away from disability and SSI if at all possible, mainly because I want to earn what I make and keep my independence. Hopefully my T calls today and we can discuss my game plan in detail. I spend so much time relying on others to make my decisions for me because I doubt so much and I am a people pleaser, but this is my life and I am the only one who can decide my future. And I think it's time I apply for beauty school.