bluebicyle- im sure you are right about it not being updated.
As in the past, drs who are listed as taking new patients really were not, or they didnt even exist at the phone # given, etc.

Im just frustrated...

and i dont really have any ideas of who to call that doesnt suck.
I am rather close to just saying fxck it to the whole thing. quitting my current pdoc and T and meds and just taking up yoga and eating vegan instead. seems just as much like bs to me at the moment...

ok, i know i am being ridiculous here, but the urge to solve the problem of a burning pan in the kitchen by burning down the entire house is starting to make sense to me....

Im just very frustrated and feeling completely alone and broken at the moment.
im pretty sure rational thought will return when i stop being so pissed off.
sorry for the whiny post.