Phil... hope there no confusion regarding the above.. my cuz, the boy/man ... sees things correctly imo... i let him use my id to answer.. prob against regs.. but, i admit, im not perfect...

just wanted to say... when i was younger.. teens/early teens.. we had about 13 girls in my class.. i was no jock... apparantly that mattered to them..

one by one iasked each girl in class to be my girl... one by one, each said no...

talk about crushed.. all said "we like you as a friend" ... how did that help then?

what i felt in my heart was all heartache... i imagined the bandaid was love... but i didn't see how i already had that... i only could see what i hadn't recieved...

its taken me a long time to understand this better... today i don't feel any great need for a girlfriend, wife, or dog... they can't heal me... only give me clues that in my blindness i've slowly strung together to make the Greatest Story ever told to me... The Story of My Life..

and you have your story to learn and share... we are Blessed for it..

exposing your pain is painful... thank you... and may you Heal soon...

Nowheretorun