First, I got off meds on July 2, 2016 and since my highest weight on meds probably about 12-15 months ago, I have lost 40-45 pounds without trying.

In an effort to help the weight loss, I am preparing to start the Whole30 on Monday. It's only supposed to be 30 days but I think I'm gonna go a bit longer but I'll make the final decision on that near the end of the first 30 days. I'm thinking it will be more like 60 or 90 days but we'll see. Anyway, I'm hoping that it will help level things out for me. Between the alternating anger/rage and overwhelming tearfulness when I do feel, and the rest a kind of void of feeling, I need to get proactive, in an effort to avoid medication again. In the midst of preparing for this, I have decided to return to a morning and evening meditation routine to also help. I'm hoping this will help keep me "centered" and focused instead of my usual scatter brained self lately. I hope that with all this I can eventually, probably more than a year, I can get myself down to a normal weight.