I'm trying to pretend I'm wearing an imaginery muzzle. I'm going to try the "don't blame, don't complain" rule again.

I'm feeling a bit easier on myself now. The psy said I do have a disorder. So if that is the underlying cause of my discomfort and anxiety, at least I have a reason. I'm still staying away from him sexually and going for more therapy.

I must knock it off with the SH.