((((((Grace))))))) << I just felt like hugging you, but only if you want a hug, ok?

I've felt like you were a member of this group ever since you first posted here. BTW, you have great insight to be able to recognize that you might feel unwelcome because you feel like you don't deserve to be cared about. A lot of us can relate to that belief, but I'm sure you wouldn't think that anyone else doesn't deserve to be cared about, would you? You deserve to be cared about too. I promise. Once you have identified that you feel that way, you can start to counter the belief.

I'm glad that you posted again, and hope that you will post again any time that you feel like it, whether you need some help or need a friend, or just feel like talking.