*safe hugs* if wanted.

Pinksoil, it's been three years for me and I still sometimes miss cutting. I don't want to go back to the point in my life when I needed it, but sometimes I miss it. Almost like someone misses a friend when the friendship is over. It's like a part of me is gone.

I can really relate to what you're saying. It really is a painful thing. For a long time, I had to continually touch my scars just to be reassured. In fact, sometimes I still do that.

I can say, though, that it's a step in a good direction (even though it's scary and may not seem 100% like a good idea). I never would have believed it before giving up cutting... but it really does feel better without it.

Good Luck! Sounds like you have a great T to help you through it.