Hello Jazz: I'm sorry I don't think there is much I can offer with regard to this. If you see a therapist, this might be a good thing to discuss with that person. If you do not, perhaps seeing one might be beneficial.

I don't know what the likelihood of being terminated would be if you disclosed your obsession to your psychiatrist. It is possible he might decide it would be best if you saw someone else. And perhaps, in the whole scheme of things, that's not such a bad idea.

I know you wrote that you really appreciate this psychiatrist as a provider. But, at least from my perspective, you have to look at this situation in its totality. And in sum might it not be doing more harm than good? Either way, however, I think the important thing is that you take some kind of positive action in some direction to address what is going on with you. Otherwise, I fear, events may conspire to take matters out of your hands leaving you to try to figure out what to do to pick up the pieces.

I see this is your first post here on PC. So... to PsychCentral… from the Skeezyks! May the time you spend here be of benefit.

PsychCentral is a great place to get information as well as support for mental health issues. The more you post, & reply to other members’ posts, the more a part of the community you will become. Plus there are social groups you can join & chat rooms where you’ll be able to connect with other PC members in real time (once your first 5 posts have been reviewed & approved.) Lots of great stuff! So please keep posting!