Hello (((Twirls))). I am sorry that you are struggling at this time. There are many sensible diets on the American Diabetes Website that may help you learn to eat correctly. Most of the diets are nutritionally sufficient and lower in calories as well. Hypoglycemic diets, which enable you to eat about 6 times a day in smaller portions, are sometimes helpful as well as nutritionally based. The main point of the issue is to address the self esteem issues with your therapist, then you can further your future in the most possible and protected manner, so you feel safe to get the help you need to get into a state of recovery that you can be comfortable with so you can feel better emotionally, so food willl not be the threat it is to your mental well being at this time. Take care (((Twirls))). Soidhonia