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Originally Posted by Clara22
Once you were that close to death, did your ideas about taking your own life changed? mine did not. I mean, if I am desperate I do not remember when I was close to death and I was so bitter. it is like I live in silos
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When my life was still chaos and I was younger, I thought about suicide but I never actually went to act on it. I was in 'survival mode' according to my T, so it makes sense. However, when I was given the "good" news that I was going to live, others wanted to celebrate.... I wanted to drink myself to death. I didn't want to live, a part of me didn't, I still look back and see a missed opportunity.
I still want to die. Every day. But I don't think I can do it. I can't put my fiance and others close to me through that.