I think it's important for all us to be aware of medication side effects and to understand how medications affect us in the long term. At the same time, it's also important not to overanalyze everything and psych yourself out.

You don't want to be so engrossed in your medication "research" that you envisage the worst possible scenarios and begin trying to "read between the lines", or so to speak. There is nothing to read the lines between.

A better thing to do is ask yourself: what am I really afraid of? You need to address your fears and rationalize them. I'll help you out :

"I am scared they will somehow hurt me." -- Why is this? Is this because you've read about other people getting "hurt" by medications? But why not look at the positive outcomes people have reported. And how likely are these side effects of doom really?

"everything about them scares me." -- Why? That's a very broad statement. Think about what leads you to say that "everything" scares you? Surely you aren't scared of everything. I'm betting you're scared of specific things.

"I know they are supposed to help me but they really frighten me" -- Why? What about them frightens you? Side effects? Is this linked to the first question? How likely will these medications help you vs how likely will they hurt you?

Hopefully that helps! Not intended to be bullying at all. Just trying to help you to rationalize things.