I too have difficulty coming to grips with the fact that I will never have the life I once had. I grieve that life most everyday. People say I should be happy with what I have but I want to kick them in the shins. How dare they say that? I'd like them to live for a week the way I live and dare the to say the same thing.

I have a very good relationship. Everyone says how happy I should then be. What?! They're kidding me, right? A wonderful relationship isn't everything though. There is still a hell of a lot missing that prevents any sense of feeling complete.