Slept 11 hours but woke up hungover and agitated. Having ideation but trying to distract myself. Off to university now. Not sure how I will manage but I guess I can always leave early if things get worse. Mind a bit calmer. Still irritable and impatient though and feeling low. Considering hospital if I feel worse as I have begun planning to harm myself. Idk maybe another night on Zyprexa will help and I can avoid IP. Sorry for the jumbled post, like my mind.