I cant believe the craziness of my situation.i obviously am screaming for help but no one is listening.
So about four. Days ago i did something that may have caused an infection in my finger.i never confided in anyone until yesterday cause i was really angry.
no response when i told her what i did.then i told my god mother and shes like you got to stop doing that you could hit an artery and she talked about self care and shes like ill call and tell your mom.so its today and my casemanger had stood me up the other day and says shell call at 3:30.i explained how i was in pain and it developed yellow crust and so she talked to my mom i let her mom talks to her for 30 minutes and hands phone back to me and casemanger says mom knows shell talk to you later.but mom is acting as oblivious as yesterday watching Korean soaps.im not quite sure who my aunt and casemanger talked to but it cant have been my mom cause my mom has never been this calm to the point its kinda spooky.i dont want to go to the er i want to go to get checked by regular doctor cause its easy to lie about what happened its already been four almost five days the pain has stayed the same and if i do lose my hand ill be really disabled and one less thing to worry about. Id hate going to the er cause there so insulting to self injurers. calling what you did minor or superficial.id rather go to my regular doctor.