I have had a horrible week. I left my abusive partner 2 weeks ago and am struggling with no support and trying to overcome anxiety and depression. I have 3 children and have become afraid to leave the house as my 2 year old has started to tantrum and I feel overwhelmed and upset by it. Not leaving the house whirls with my depression.
While working with my therapist, i have started to become more and more adventurous to leave the house with my children. Today I battled the bank and groceries with my 9 year old, 2 year old and 10 month old.
At the grocery store my 2 year old started to throw a tantrum. I handled it okay, held back tears and got back into the car. While driving I realized during the tantrum I had forgotten to grab diaper cream for my youngests sore bum. I decided to stop at a smaller drug store on my way home. My 2 year old was screaming to stay in the car so my eldest daughter told me to run in quickly to grab the cream. We went through safety rules, i left my phone with her and ran in.
I was in 2 minutes, came out and a lady was stood by my car. She started to berate me about the negligence of abandoning my children in the car. I started to cry and tried to explain and she threatened to call the police and a social worker. I apologized and assured her I don't shop while leaving my children alone and that my oldest is responsible..

I have come home and cried for the rest of the evening. I realize it was a mistake but I feel so upset
My anxiety is through the roof again and I no longer feel i can leave the house.
I feel SO defeated. I just keep trying to do my best and it's never good enough.. i feel my children deserve somebody better and her criticism of my parenting has hurt deeper than she could imagine at such a vulnerable time..

I feel so ashamed and unworthy right now :'(