So do I. (I mean I wish you didn't).

Honestly I no longer wish I didn't because I know how much difference mine make. About 2.5 years ago my main med stopped working and I found out what life is like without it. I wouldn't go through that again for anything (and I did have some meds working at least a little).

For me it got a lot easier as it became my routine. Just having to remember to take meds and adjusting to that was tough and now it's just something I do for a few seconds every day and it makes such a difference in how I feel.