Hopefully you'll be able to learn to be glad for them. A lot of us struggle really hard with the need for them and that they are long-term. It makes things tough. But there are worse things; at least meds can help us.

But totally understand what you are saying. I've been on meds for depression then bipolar for 19 years and I still wish I could skip them even just sometimes. (Although tonight I'll get a reminder why I take them; I ran out of my AP and probably will have a rough night sleeping. I NEVER do this so I'm pretty mad at myself and will pay for it for a few days).

I guess taking it one day at a time might help? Looking ahead a lifetime is a long, long time.