Dear Dr S, I don't know what to say. 5 days. When I see you next things will be different. Physically, I will be different. Will I be different? What am I going to do about Monday? I feel like I am distancing to protect myself from you. Will I even still want to see you in Tuesday? I don't know. After yesterday and the pager, I don't know. I know it shouldn't bug me...I guess the question is how much does it bug me? I don't know. Love me