This might or might not be the same kind of thing, but I always wanted to be "just like everyone else" right along with everyone else rather than being academically superior. Once in the 5th or 6th grade I intentionally mis-spelled "pen" for "pin" because our class always won that kind of competition and I could not handle the thought of our class going on a picnic for winning while the other class had to remain in the cafeteria. It felt really good to me when the other class won that day, and it did not matter to me what anyone thought. The fact that I had mis-spelled such a simple word was intended to make it obvious to anyone paying attention that I had done that intentionally and had not made an error, and the bottom line in all of this -- and even to this very day -- was like a cry for all of us to equally love, accept and respect each other.